gelisa1

So this week has been absolutly crazy,last week i found out my nana who lives in atlanta was rushed to emergency cause she could barely breath,it turned out both her kidney's failed but she still lived through it. Monday i stayed home from school cause i wasent feeling well,then tuesday i missed school cause i had a appointment at the anxiety/depression clinic which was pretty interesting,i dont know why im so open to talking to complete strangers about my problems,considering im a very private person but then yesterday i stayed home from school cause i was still feeling a little under the weather,no it wasent swine flu but on tuesday i called my nana to check up on her and the day before she had almost died but they were able to revive her and she sounded very weak so i got off the phone with her and let her rest. Yesterday my dad called and said she almost died again and is now on life support and the doctors dont think she is going to make it,my dad just broke down and had to get off the phone cause he could barely talk,my aunt broke down as well and told my mom that we shouldnt wait and that we should go down their now and see her now like asap,so today i missed another day of school and me and my brothers,mom and aunt are driving down to atlanta to go visit her and check up on her,im so scared i have been praying for and trying to act positive but with the way people are acting and talking,it just doesnt look good at all,i really dont want to go through this again,i know everyone is going to have die sooner or later but this is my senior yr and she always talked about how she would love to see me graduate and how she couldnt wait for that day to come,i really need her their,her mom(my great grandmother) who i was also very close to passed away a few yrs ago and i just cant deal with that pain again,so i would like for anyone who is reading this to just please pray for my nana and that she makes it through this,i have heard my dad cry before,but it his mother,im so scared to visit her in the hospital,but im going 2 try and save positive and tell her how much i need her here and how much i love her,she cant leave me now,i mean im already depressed and stressed as it is and now this is just adding on to it.

Thank u for anyone who prays for my nana

Well i just officially started my first day of school today,thank god i only have 3 classes from 7:40-10:46am. Im taking music technology,graphic design and a online history course,so my classes are pretty fun besides the history course but at least it's online. So recently I have been beginning to get into a lot of british artists such as "JLS","Girls Aloud","Alexandra Burke" and tons of other ones. Im really liking Cheryl Cole's new song who is a member of Girls aloud but is about to come out with a solo record this month,Alexandra burke is as well and JLS are coming out with a record in the beginning of november. But none of they're albums are selling in the U.S so i have 2 order em from a UK site which means more money to ship it out of the country,so i can only afford to get one of em at the moment and i think im gonna get Cheryl coles,it sounds pretty good.



I want both of em and JLS's!!!!

Alexandra Burkes Album

Ok First of all i already have Paramore's album brand new eyes and it is just as great as i thought it would be,some of the songs remind me of the style on "All we know is falling" which is a good thing. I really wanted the deluxe version but it was sold out so i got stuck with the itunes version but it's all good. Earlier I had completly forgot that paramore was supposed to be performing on conan tonight and was so mad at myself so i stayed up all night waiting for someone to post it and finally after like 2 hrs someone did!! Im really diggin Hayleys platnium blonde hair. I've always wondered what she would look like as a brunnette but maybe she'll go that route in the future? Who knows,oh i totally forgot that AFI's new album comes out tomorrow as well but unfortunatly i dont have any money to but it at the moment,hopefully soon though,i have to save money for that,Tokio hotel's new album which comes out on the 6th of next month and then i have to save money for flyleaf's new album that comes out in November,I should be able to get that one for sure. Well that's all for today :)

I have been discovering so much new music this yr it's crazy!!! I just pre ordered paramores "Brand new eyes" yesterday,cant wait till next tuesday!!! Im also excited for AFI's new album Crash/Love which comes out on the same day and then on October 6th Tokio Hotels album "Humanoid comes out,I am so siked!! Flyleaf's new album "Memento Mori" comes out sometime in october too,with all these new albums im gonna need to save me some money! I recently just discovered a singer from iceland,her name is bjork and in a way she kind of reminds me of lady gaga but that's only because they're music videos are different from most you see and her style is weird but creative as well,so I thought I would post a few of her songs that i am quite addictive to right now. Um oh yeah and I heard the recording of Paramore's "Brick by boring brick" and i love it but for some reason i prefer the acoutsic version over the recording,dont know why but either way it's still really good! The whole taylor swift and kanye west thing at the VMA's is just really annoying i mean was anyone really suprised at kanyes actions? it's Kanye west,that's what he doe's im a fan of both so im not on anyones side,but I do agree that what he did was rude and uncalled for,that was taylors moment,I loved lady gaga's performance of paparazzi!!! it was crazy! And as a beyonce fan she earned much more respect from me for what she did for taylor. I just wish that paramore had performed or at least presented a award,I mean they were they're so why not give them some camera time? I guess that's all I have to say for now :)

Ok,so I discovered this new singer named "LIGHTS",and not only is she beautiful but she is very talented,and has to be one of my new favorite singers of this year,and she's gonna come out with a new ep next tuesday and a new album later this year which im so excited for,but it's not more exciting then paramores new album of course!!!! This is her latest single and I love it!,cant wait to get it off of iTunes next tuesday.

Ok so im currently am in the mood to just rant!! My computer had a virus on it like I had made notice of in my last post,so I had to download iTunes all over again and reset my ipod so I could get my music back and you will not believe what happened,it permanetly deleted all of my Paramore music!!!! The only 2 songs of their's they bothered to keep was "We Are Broken" and "Decode". I was so pissed,it cost me money to buy all of that so now I am currently re-downloading all of their music again,but to get my spirits up im listening to "Ignorance",so im better now,exspcially since i have the music back on my ipod. I recently just heard "Brick by boring brick" that paramore performed for MTV unplugged and it just got me excited all over again for the new album. Im kind of confused on if it's really from a performance for MTV or if it's the actual recording cause it sounds like a recording but I guess we'll see when the new album comes out!

Ok so my updating once a week thing didnt turn out well last week only cause my computer got messed up,so it had to get fixed but I just got it back yesterday so hopefully things change. Flyleaf released they're new single "Again" last week and I was so happy when I found out but listening to it I guess I kind of exspected more,I mean the song is great but one thing I dont like is how they added those extra vocals to lacey's voice during the chorus,that was not needed at all but overall the song is great,I just hope the whole album isnt like that! School starts next week but like I noted before im getting homeschooled this year,so my life is good! Today for our teenage sunday class from church we are going to the movies and out to eat,I dont know if their is going to be much for me to eat at thr old country buffet,I mean most of their food tastes like crap anyway,the only I really ate their before becoming a vegetarian was their cheesecake which is my favorite dessert and they're icecream,some soda,mainly they're junk food. So I guess im gonna have to check out and see what kind of veggie foods they have besides salad,it makes it worse that most of they're food is surrounded around meat,since well 99% of the food they have in their is meat!But before all of that we are going to the movies,the younger kids are going to see "
Up" which looks so cute,then some of the older kids are going to see "Final Destination 4" and a me and few others are going to see "Halloween 2",I know weird for a sunday church group to be seeing those movies right?. Now I am a huge fan as well as my mom of the Halloween film series but I have been hearing mixed reviews about this new one,some say it's awesome and has a lot of blood and gore,some say it was a dissapointment and that the end was dumb. Somd dude on YouTube totally ruined some things for me when he mentioned that they kill the Dr. that was taking care of michael in the past and some other things to but it's all good,im looking forward to seeing it,I dont know many chicks that love thriller/horror/gore movies besides one of my aunts,I think im the kind of chick a guy would love to take the movies,instead of seeing a chick flick,i'd rather see a action or scary movie. I think today is going to be a good day,i've also been on the Peta2 website a lot lately,it's really inspiring me to possible become a animals activist,I should be getting my stickers,DVD and campaign material in the mail this week so im super excited,I also got my janis joplin poster in the mail last week and I love it! if only i had a room I could post it up on since I share a room with my mother,yep I said it,I share a room with my mother,we have to many people living in our house but im not ashamed,um I guess that's all but I think later im going to post a video to one of my favorite songs of all time K bye!

I have not been on here in forever but I just made a deal with myself that im goin to update at least once a week starting now. So my summer so far has been a long one and a very emotional one. I have a very rough relationship with my "father" and some things just havent been right with me and him so I sent him a letter letting him know how I feel. He knows that I sent it to him yet he refuses to call me back or email me giving me a response and admitting that the stuff I told him are true and it sucks,I feel like he doesnt care about my feelings and by the way he has been acting and has acted in the pass could care less about me and my brothers,I dont get how a parent can go months without calling their child not knowing if they're even still on this earth yet they are having more babies back at home they know they cant afford to take care of. It has almost been two wks and im sure he has read it,im getting to the point where I am ready to shut him out of my life for good,I dont refer to him as my father anymore because he refuses to act like one,to me he is just a aqquaintance. i love him but I hate his ways and all I can do is pray that he'll be a better father to his other kids than he was to me and my brothers.

But on the good side of my summer I saw paramores music video for "Ignorance" and I am loving it!!!! I cannot wait for the new record,hopefully i can earn enough money to preorder it,So many new albums are coming out this year,I feel like this is the year of music. Flylead,Paramore,Tokio Hotel and some others are all coming out with new albumbs,im just so exicted. I've also discovered some new music this summer and im beginning to really get into the 60's-80's music. Like New kids on the block,then police,pink floyd,jimi hendrix,janis joplin. Im like literally becoming obsessed with janis joplin,cant stop listening to her music and Im about to get a poster of her lol. Well that's it I guess but im going to try and update once a week now,oh yea i almost forgot,I am now a vegetarian,I have spent months feeling bad about eating animals knowing the crap they have to go through just for us to have some meat and I dont feel it's right,I have been a vegetarian for a month now and no my mom doesnt like it because she has to buy me seperate food which means more money but oh well,lol,I feel good knowing im doin something good for the animals.

Bye!

I cant believe michael jackson is really gone. I grew up listening to his music as did everyone in my family. When my mom was younger she was lucky enough to actually go see him in concert and she had the thriller jacket which back then was around 300 bucks but was probly well worth it. I got even more upset when yesterday on the news they said he had planned on coming out with a new music video,and I know not only me but tons of other fans had been waiting for some new stuff from him,sad that's never going to happen. I honestly believe that he is the king of pop and that has actually paved a way for african americans in the music business I mean if it werent for him we wouldnt even have some of the artists we have today. I never did believe that he molested any kid,the mother was obviously in it for the money consdidering her family was poor and she even had her own kids steal from a store in the past. Just because michael offered them some money doesnt mean that he had anything to hide,he just wanted them to stop lying so that he could move on with his life. I get disgusted just living on the same earth as some people who are still calling him a child molester saying "well at least their is one less child molester in the world"? what kind of crap is that? Ok you may not like him whatever but at least have some respect for him and his family,I cant believe they're are people who are actually happy that he is dead,it's disgusting. I know he in a much better place though now with his creator and he no longer has to deal with the baggage he dealt with here from both the haters and the media who I feel are really being fake right now,when he was alive all they did was criticize him and judge him but now that's he's gone they want to talk about how much they loved him and all of that,it is not our place to judge,God will take care of that,people just werent looking at the obvious facts that he didnt do it,yes he had a rough childhood but he was just trying to give kids what he didnt have growing up,he was a very loving person and I think people often mis quoted him and took him the wrong way,they didnt understand where he was really coming from but anyway I love MJ and always will.


Here is 2 of my favorite MJ songs!!!

WHOOO! im so happy cause this upcoming week is the last week of school! I have finals next week so it's gonna be kind of hectic but oh well,I can manage. I am so happy that is finally almost summer,now I can sleep in as long as I want when I want. I wish I could see paramore this summer in concert but dont have the money which sucks! I really wanna see envy on the coast live to but they're not comin to my area. Does anyone remember when hayley said the new album was coming out,I completly forgot,haha was it september?

Man this year is the best year because......my two favorite bands are coming out with they're new albums,yay!!!! Flyleaf's album is coming out in August,I have been waiting forever for them to come out with a new record and so far from the songs that i have heard I know its going to be AMAZING!!! Then they're is the one and only paramore coming out with theirs in september,of course I wish these albums were coming out sooner but oh well time tends to go by fast anyway. Im just dying to hear the songs that are going to be on paramore's new album and the cover. Same go's for flyleaf even though i've already heard some of the songs that are going to be on the new album and they are absolutly breathtaking.

Well that's all I have for right now but all I can say is that life,well life is good and school is over in 4 weeks!!!!!!! whooo!

Just felt like posting my favorite beatles song "Hey Jude". I was watching one of my favorite movies"Acroos The Universe" and it reminded me of this song.





Amazing song!!

And here is another favorite by Spandua Ballet




New Kids on the block


And lastly Chaka Khan!!!



just felt like posting some of my favorite music.

Just wanted to wish everyone a happy easter!!!! Is anyone doing anything special? Im just having a family dinner. What about you guyz?

Im in Ohio today and man am I having a blast,we got here friday night and yesterday we went to a place called Magic Mountain,I had never heard of it but it's kind of like chuckie Chesses. It was imteresting but anyway we then went out for some pizza and ice cream which was nice. The Whole meaning of me and my family going to Ohio was (1) to spend time as a family and (2) to visit my uncle,aunt and cousins which was nice, Were still here currently but are leaving later today,but it was fun while it lasted,nice to get out of Michigan for a while,and plus I had never really been into Ohio i've just drove thorugh it and such while driving to Georgia. But one thing I could not believe that I saw was that they had a CHEESECAKE FACTORY!!!!!!! Cheesecake is obviously my favorite desert so I practically flipped when I saw it cause we dont have a cheesecake shop back in Michigan,but unfortunatly I wasent able to go,cause my aunt said it's like 6 bucks a slice!!! But I think it would have been totally worth it,I mean it's chessecake right?

Hey Guys,I just mada a new community for one of my new favorite bands "Now,now every children". They are awesome,feel free to join and I really need help with the graphics,layouts and such since I just made it,s if anyone is willing to help out that would be great,I already have one person helping out who is also a fan. Please join if your a fan and if your not,check out they're myspace and it'll only be a matter of time before they become of your new favorite bands.

http://community.livejournal.com/newchildren/

Can anybody recomend any new or just some good bands that you enjoy. My ipod needs a music update,i more so listen to indie,pop,emo type stuff in the rock genre,i dont like screamo or heavy metal,no offense to anyone,haha.

Merry christmas everyone! I didnt get much but im still grateful. I got a 50 dollar gift card for target,a cd player and i finally got my final riot deluxe and it is amazing,i have been watching it nonstop and im lovin it! Haha im supposed to get a new ipod later in the week though so thats cool but i wanted to remind you guys that haleys birthday is this saturday,she is turning 20 can you believe it! I wanted to wish you guys a blessfull merry christmas!

Man am i happy. This past friday here in michigan we had a snow day,thank god and tomorrow is the first official day of winter break. Im kinda excited for christmas,my family barely has any money so me and my brothers might not get anything,we have been staying well somewhere that i wouldnt call a house and we barely have the money to stay here. I did want a mac notebook for my schoolwork and music needs but thats not likely to happen so i dont what might happen on thursday,im just praying to god that its a better christmas then im hoping for and that me and my family wont have to struggle for much longer.

What color do you think haley would look best with,i like her hair when its red or orange but the purple was cool too,what color you think shes going to do next? Also i wanna say happy 19th birthday to taylor,i hope your having a blessed birthday!